Showing posts with label weight lossWeight Loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight lossWeight Loss. Show all posts

Curious... am I obsessed?

i have been feeling a severe lack of motivation lately. i guess it feels like i have been stuck in the area of 142-145 for a few weeks and I just want to bust through to the 130’s and maybe ill feel better about myself.

lately i have also been struggling with whether i just want to do this as fast as possible (severe calorie restriction), or whether i want to take my time, be healthy and work slower but a lot more steadier. to be honest tho… i really just want the extra weight off as soon as i can get there but i am so scared i will just be “skinny fat” instead of looking actually thin.

i will do anything to get past 139 tho…. last summer my bf bought me some lipo 6 black. i think i still have some and i might use them to get through these few lbs. i dont really like how they make me feel but i think it might be worth a try if just for a week or so.

Finished jogging with my boyfriend! I am tired hot happy and feel very accomplished:)

totally worth it.

-running with 2 dogs keeps your going

I’ve managed to only eat 200 calories so far today. I’m waiting for tonight when my family and I go to Red Robin for my graduation dinner. I’m at Red Robin’s website trying to build the healthiest good-tasting meal I can. Hahaha :)

4 strawberries with nutella: 100 calories 

total: 550

outtake: 400

net: 150

i reallyy wanted to just give up and eat everything I saw….so glad i didn’t!



heya, i’m looking online for some good workout regimens, does anyone know of some good sites on which i can find some good exercise regimens and diet plans? also does anyone know of a good daily food intake tracker site?

I’m at 207.2 lbs, which means I’m 7.3 lbs away from officially hitting my first major goal.  I cannot wait; I plan on throwing myself a kick-ass party when I hit it.  I mean, Jesus, Panda Dynamo has lost 57.4 lbs so far.  That is certainly nothing to sneeze at.

I realize I’ve been rather hesitant to ruffle any feathers on my Tumblr…yeah, that’s not gonna fly anymore.  The whole point of this damn thing is to be able to rant, vent, rave, and (for me) process all that’s going on around me.  I shouldn’t hide that I love yaoi and hentai, or that I love the gym more than sex, or that I’m a shameless flirt.  And I most certainly shouldn’t hide being a nerd girl (Han shot first, btw).

I shouldn’t hide that I still have feelings for Abraham and Franklin (they’d be stupid not to know).  But I’m moving on.  It’s better than nothing.  And I probably will find better.

I shouldn’t hide how inwardly comfortable I am with my sexuality, even though I outwardly react like Barney Fife.

Anything else?  I’ll think on it.  But I’m no longer ashamed to post anything about what I like or don’t like.



Rest day. 
I missed running, thoughhh! :D Excited for running tmwww :D :D :D  

Food
Breakfast: Porridge with chopped apple and soya milk
Lunch: Mashed potatoes, veggie crisp bake, meat-free burger (just the burger no bun)
Snacks: Oat crackers, raisins, fruit smoothie
Dinner: Vegetable soup (carrot, celery, cabbage, broccoli, leek, noodles)
total:1670 kcal

Exercise

Time keeps on ticking...

As much as I would love to believe it, there is probably no way I lost 2.2 pounds yesterday, because I ate french fries and a lot of other garbage.  I still think I probably did lose weight, but overall, my weight loss has been a little high all around, because I think I’m eating fairly healthy, I haven’t felt sick at all.

Anyways.  I think I might trade that yoga mat in for a scale.  BUT! I do feel skinnier today! 



I had forgotten how much I love this dress. Even though one of the straps is broken and janky in the back (just a tiny bit), paired with some nude wedges, I think it should look pretty good. No bra…again…Today will be an excellent day. Fasting. I’m feeling inspirational.



LUNCH!!!

Multiseed deli roll (yes the top half was not in the picture!)

Deli ham, spinach, cucumber.

grapes, strawberries, apple and blueberries :)



Anything is possible

Anything can be. 

-Words of Wisdom

I have OCD in regards to numbers. Say for example, i’m on an exercise machine, the calories/kms/time all have to be multiples of 5 (100, 345, 450 etc) before I get off. Same goes for music volume in the car and on the television.

Which is why today, June the 5th, is a perfect day to start. So my healthy eating and regular running starts today. Well when I wake up, considering it’s 1am at the moment. I’ll be eating to fix my iron and allergies and running to fix my weak back.

And incase you were wondering, the goal is perfectly flat and toned abs (24/7).

Photobucket

Photobucket

Photobucket

I’ve decided I looove my body when it’s covered in clothes, I just don’t like the way I look naked. 

These were  taken yesterday night. 

Photobucket

I’m tooootally diggin how my body looks here.

  • Find Motivation! Surround yourself with people who support healthy eating!
  • Relate exercise with relaxation and stress relief. Music helps immensely, so fill up your iPod with all of your favorites!
  • Go with sugar free or fat free ALMOST always - check labels and compare nutritional content! Just because it says *FAT FREE!* or has other healthy words on the packaging doesn’t always mean it’s better for you.
  • MOST of your daily carbs and calories should come from fruits and vegetables.
  • Protein Source: egg whites and white fish (Absolutely no red meat.)
  • When cooking with oil, try to “keep it fresh, keep it clean” as much as possible, but remember both olive oil and coconut oil are proven weight loss aides in addition to other great health benefits!
  • Stay within 1000 to 1200 calories per day and also shift your intake amount from day to day, too, to keep your body guessing. Use a weight loss calculator online to figure out how many calories you need to consume per day and subtract 550 calories. Sparkspeople, caloriecount, bodybuilding.com are great tools.
  • To help with bloating, don’t exceed 800mg of sodium a day.
  • Stick with skim milk or unsweetened Almond Breeze.
  • Alternate Greek yogurt with traditional yogurt to receive the maximal calcium and protein benefits from this extraordinary nutritional source.
  • Stay away from dried fruits and remember that sometimes even starchy vegetables can wreck a diet.
  • Following a balanced diet high in fresh fruits, vegetables and lean protein might leave room for some cheese depending on your weight loss goals and any existing health conditions, but generally try to steer clear of it.
  • ALWAYS eat breakfast and make it the largest meal of the day. “Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince, and dinner like a pauper.” Think about it.  Why would you need a huge meal at the end of the day when you’re getting ready to relax and go to bed?  You need energy at the beginning of the day. 
  • Stay busy! Keep your mind occupied all day. Be productive. You’ll spend less time wondering what else there is to eat and ultimately burn more calories anyway.
  • To stay full throughout the day by drinking lots of water, plus black coffee and tea. Don’t ever drink your calories, unless you are doing a meal replacement or something.
  • NO FAST FOOD! None. There is no such thing as healthy fast food - even the lighter choices have so many preservatives it’s just not worth it.
  • Hold the sauce and skip the salt - condiments, creamers, etc.. the secret calories they add sneak up on you quicker than you may realize.
  • When grocery shopping, if it comes from a box it should probably stay there.
  • Tip: When you are having a horrible sweet tooth and you feel like you are going to binge try “Nestle fat free hot coco” its only 20 calories.
  • Another tip: Keep Sugar free Gum with you at all times.
  • ALWAYS track what you put in your mouth, you’ll be surprised what foods are preventing you from losing weight.
  • Shooting for a loss of 20lbs at a time is a great way to get discouraged.  Baby steps.  Aim for a pound or two at a time and just take it a week at a time.  And then keep at it.
  • Weigh yourself every other day, not 50 times a day.
  • Don’t deprive yourself give your self a treat once a week (whether its your favorite candy bar or a slice of pizza this might even cause you to lose more weight because you will be giving your metabolism something new to break down causing it to work harder and faster. BUT if you are going to eat something bad make sure it stays within your calorie intake for that day!
  • If it’s past 6pm or you have already reached your calorie count for the day and you are absolutely hungry, safe foods to have during those times would be 2 cups of Original Air popped pop corn or any of the following: Strawberries, Cucumber, Green Beans, Celery, Sugar Free/Fat Free Jello, Lettuce, Green Pepper, Blueberries, Radishes, Broccoli, Egg whites.

Next time you feel the urge to binge remember to binge on SMART food. These are all negative calorie foods:

apples ~ apricots ~ artichokes ~ asparagus ~ beet greens ~ beets ~ blackberries ~ blueberries ~ broccoli ~ Brussels sprouts ~ buffalo fish ~ cabbage ~ cantaloupe ~ carrots ~ cauliflower  ~ Chinese cabbage ~ chives ~ clams ~ cod ~ cranberries ~ cucumbers ~  Damson plum ~ dandelion greens ~ eggplant ~ endive ~flounder ~ frogs legs ~ garlic ~ grapefruit ~ grapes ~ green beans ~ honeydew ~  lemons ~ lettuce ~ limes ~ loganberries ~ mangoes ~ mushrooms ~ muskmelons ~ mussels ~ mustard greens ~ nectarines ~ okra ~ onions ~ oranges  ~ parsley leaves ~ parsnips ~ peaches ~ pears ~ peas ~ peppers ~ pineapple ~ pomegranates ~ prunes ~ pumpkin ~ quince ~ radishes ~ raspberries ~ red cabbage ~ rhubarb ~ rutabagas ~ spinach ~ squash ~ strawberries ~ string beans ~ tangerines ~ terrapin ~ tomato ~ turnips ~ watercress ~ watermelon

*Disclaimer: Original text by undressedskeleton - edited a bit by me because there were a couple of things I just didn’t agree with.

i ate like a shit tonnnnn. hahaha 

I can’t believe the first week of the summer semester is over already.  So far, my classes aren’t so bad and have been really fun.  My math class is kind of odd as the instructor reminds me of Prof. Trelawney from Harry Potter.  It’s all ok though.  I only have three more weeks in that class before I’m done with math.  Which is good.  I don’t think I could stand to take this particular course in a 16 week semester.

On the subject of school, I found an interesting article this morning.  It lists the top grossing majors and the lowest money makers.  I’m ok with the thought of not making a ton of cash as long as I do something I love, but it is still intriguing to see where the “real” money is made.  You can find the article HERE.

Completely off the topic of school, I’m down another 2 pounds!  I’ve lost nearly 60 pounds from my heaviest and can’t wait to see the finished product when I get down to my ultimate goal!  If you are heavy and want to lose weight but don’t think you can, just remember that the only person holding you back is yourself.  I had to get out of my own way before this change and I couldn’t be happier about it.  Next to going back to school, dropping my fat card is the best decision I’ve ever made!

-4lbs.

Remember how I said I’m gonna lose 30 pounds? I didn’t lie. In less than four months, I have lost 16 pounds, just by counting calories and dancing. I would get sick, and it would set my goals back, but I’d always get back up on my feet to kick even more ass than before.

My diet hasn’t been the best, but it’s a slow process, and I can proudly say that I went with the Chargrilled Chicken Sandwich and fruit cup at Chik-fil-a rather than the spicy chicken sandwich and waffle fries. I enjoyed every bit of it too, and without the bloaty, post fast food stupor I’d usually be in.

Indulgence is a fleeting thing. Why constantly give in to a craving when the taste will be gone in a matter of minutes?

This summer break, I’m challenging myself to lose 10 pounds. That’s five shy of my ultimate goal weight for August. I’m going to work hard for it, and even getting close to it will make me happy. I’m hoping that by next week I’ll be in the next digits.

Any support is welcome. :)

Sore today. Boo :(

Food

Daily milk 3

B. Shredded wheat 4

Two slices brown toast 4

Jam 2

L. Two slices ham 2

Salad 0

Dressing 1

Pear 0

D. Mexican Beef Pan Fry and white rice 13

Snacks

One banana 0

20 pistachios 4

One tsp honey 1

Total 34

Exercise

Day 8 of the 30 Day Shred

Moo xx

breakfast: bagel with cream cheese (300 calories)

random: spoonful of nutella (100 calories)

lunch: 1/2 sandwich at barnes and noble (250 calories)

dinner: slice of pizza and glass of pepsi (250 + 150=400 calories)

total: 1050 calories

outtake: 600 calories (yoga)

net: 450

ugh….it’s not that i ate too many calories, just the ones i ate were sooo unhealthy =\ oh welll i’ve been soo good lately, so one iffy day won’t ruin everything…gonna wait a few days to weigh myself again i thinkk

and this bikram yoga….omg it’s amazing! everytime i go i leave feeling soo much better than the day before….i have a feeling this is gonna become an addiction this summer (a healthy one at least!!) I seriouslyy recommend you try it if you have a studio near you!!

Every time I eat I feel so guilty afterward :(

Apparently eating 500 calories or less a day will result in 1 lb lost per week … I think I am going to try doing this. And I will also go back to only having coffee in the morning, and only one cup.  Tea the rest of the day. And gallons of water.

Today my total caloric intake was 689 calories (I love the calorie counter on my phone). That’s not too bad at all. I’ll do some exercise tonight, since I missed it the past three days :( … but I feel like work sometimes makes up for not exercising, since I sweat so much there.

NO EXCUSE.

I want to look super hot this summer, or at least by the time I go back to school.

PS. I got a new swim suit … it’s floral and so cute :D I’m very pleased with it.

My mom has been telling me to lose weight and all that since i was like 12 so she was pretty damn excited when i told her i was trying to lose weight.

My dad doesn’t really care.

Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss?
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Day Eight- Your workout routine:
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favourite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favourite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-Ana/pro-mia?
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first
experience.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?

NOTHING

If you give up anything you love completely, you increase your risk of falling off the wagon. Giving something up is a short term solution, but it doesn’t form long-term habits. I’m going to use something unhealthy that I love as an example: macaroni and cheese.

I love mac and cheese and always have. I not only love it on its own, but I love putting stuff in it, like basil, or salsa, or bacon, or black olives and shredded chicken. It makes everything better.

It also has 600+ calories in a box. And that’s with nothing added to it.

Before I was eating healthy, I would make mac and cheese at least once a month. When I made it, I’d eat half the box to start with, and a lot of the time I’d go back later and eat the rest. I’d eat the whole box in one sitting.

Mac and cheese is terrible - it’s simple carbs, fat, and dairy. It’s highly processed and full of preservatives and sodium. It is, in fact, Bad News Bears on the diet front.

But if I gave it up totally, I’d just cave. The next time I made mac for the kid I watch, I’d end up scarfing his leftovers. Or I’d resist for months, and then one day I’d be at the cafe down the street and see mac on the menu and think, “Oh, I’ve been so good. I deserve to treat myself to this tasty thing I love.”

And then I’d eat the entire fucking bowl. And it would probably be even higher in calories than the boxed version.

If you love something, don’t cut it out of your life, but watch yourself with it. Read the label and find out what the actual portion size is. Stick to the portion size listed, and count the calories.

You can also find lower-calorie ways to make the same thing and have it be just as good. Sometimes I make homemade cheese sauce and put it on cauliflower instead of pasta. Other times I cave and buy a box of Kraft dinner, but I buy the white cheddar kind. You can make the white cheddar mac and substitute fat free plain yogurt for the butter and milk in the preparation. It shaves off some calories and it’s delicious. I honestly like it more than regular macaroni and cheese.

“Reblog if you support weight loss in June.”

Last summer, I never would have worn this tank without a cardigan.  It was also pretty uncomfortable because it was so tight.  Now it’s actually a little big, and I feel great in it. :)

and to celebrate I just made the nastiest hot fudge sundae with chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream and a blend of peanut butter/hot fudge (duh) so hot it just melted the entire cup of ice cream.

I’m only 1lb away from losing 50altogether, though, after this, I might be like 2 or 3 or 8000 lbs away.

also I am going to be so sick later but my God is it worth it.

I’m okay with that?

Wish it was more, for my first week weighing in, but hey, its 4 lbs I didn’t have last week.

Photo



Here you go!

Whenever I feel like binging (I get cravings a lot), I do all of these things.
• Go brush your teeth. Chew gum. (Careful, make sure it’s sugar free and don’t have too much. It still has calories, but very low) Minty. Food would taste disgusting with that.
• Chug a cup or 2 of water. Maybe you’re not hungry. Maybe you’re just dehydrated. 
• Consider if you want to binge because you’re actually hungry, or just emotionally hungry. If your stomach is rumbling, go have some carrots or something healthy & low cal!
• Think about your goals, your thinspiration, all of the reasons you want to lose weight. Think of how binging will feel good for about 5 minutes, then make you feel awful the entire week. Think about how good it will feel if you resist.
• Drink green tea! (no sugar)
• Come on tumblr! Look at all the motivational quotes, success stories and pictures. 

Do all or some of these next time you want to binge. :) Remember, it’s not easy, but it’ll definitely be worth it! 

Also, anyone can message me if they’re feeling too tempted and I’ll motivate you to resist! Just ask for my msn, fb, skype etc. :)

Would anyone be interested?



I liked my outfit today.



Hmm.. This is hard because all I really try to think of is the good things that come of it.

I’m afraid that I’ll have a hard time maintaining and I’ll become fat again.

That was not a pretty time of my life.







Enough babble, here is my routine for the day, which is still somewhat challenging as I cannot move smoothly through every pose transition quite yet, but how awesome is it that I KNOW next week it’s going to be much easier? =D

AM Workout <— Did this in the morning, before I showered/ate

1) Morning Yoga for Flexibility - Beginners (7 min)

2) Yoga for Balance - Beginners (5 min) 

3) Strength Building Yoga - Beginners (7 min)

4) Weight Loss Yoga - Beginners (10 min)

5) 4-Week Strength Building Yoga - Intermediate (7 min)

Total:  36 minutes. Goes from stretching out your limbs to building balance and strength. The latter part of the routine sequence makes me sweat + loosens up my body for the rest of the day.

PM Workout <—— Did this before I ate dinner :) MMM Got my stiffness from furiously writing/thinking for 5+ hours!!

1) Yoga for Flexibility - Beginners (5 min 30 seconds)

2) Yoga for Getting Out of Your Way - Intermediate (11 min)

3) Cardio Yoga Challenge 1 - Beginners (4 min)

4) Get Ripped Abs from Yoga - Beginners (4 min) <— note, you need a yoga block, and this stuff HURTS

5) Yoga for Balance - Beginners (5 min) 

Total: 30 minutes. Stretches you out, works you through poses that require more flexibility, targets your abs and then winds down with some simple stretching/balancing. Did the cardio yoga video for the first time today O_O

I switch up my routines every day, depending on how my body is feeling and what areas I would like to improve on. If a new routine is hard, I will generally keep it in my rotation until it is comfortably doable. I like Tara because I can pick and chose exactly how much I want to do and how hard I want to work :) While this usually would make a lazy girl like me pick the easiest 3 routines and just repeat that every day, I’ve found that I’ve grown to search for a challenge after the easier stuff is done, and I actually LOOK FORWARD to starting new routines that look difficult so I can perfect them!  Bravo!

And that is my first Yoga Routine + Progress Monday!! :) Am I cheesy to say “Namaste” at the end?



Not sleeping/high calories

I’m so incredibly exhausted. I couldn’t sleep last night so I went to the couch around 2:00 am and fell asleep around 3:00 or 3:30, I’m not really sure.

Remember "Drake and Josh"...remember Josh...the 'plump' one...



This is me at my heaviest-around 170 lbs. This was Easter Sunday. I can’t stand to look at myself like this, but the fact that I’m now 10 lbs lighter and can definitely see a difference really helps. I never want to look like this again. 

todays intake:

  • Melon: 30 cal
  • Orange juice: 50 cal
  • Wholemeal bread: 100 cal
  • Apple & cookie crumble baby food: 70 cal
  • apple: 70 cal
  • Pineapple: 50 cal
  • Bun: 150 cal

CHINESE. CHIPS & RICE & CURRY. Grr : 650 cal

Total: 1170. 

Walked for 4 hours & skipped for 15 minutes. So minus 300 cal = 870. Still a shit day.

(FIRST OFF I do have to say my followers are probably getting sick of me talking about my BIRTHDAY DEADLINE… if not, then I appreciate the support lovelies!)

OKAY SO 24 DAYS TO GO!

  1. I realize right now that it’s actually a little bit sad, how I’m counting down to my UGW more than I’m focusing on my actually TURNING NINE-FUCKING-TEEN!
  2. My family is having actual rabbit for dinner… glad I’m working late & fasting so I for sure will NOT HAVE TO EAT RABBIT… poor little fluffy thing.
  3. If I burn at least 1750 calories/day I can reach 90 by July 5th. Since that seems unlikely, (NOT IMPOSSIBLY - JUST IMPROBABLE) I’m just announcing right now that I would be heels-over-head-happy with a 95 or 92. ;)
  4. I have to go to work now… wish me luck. Everytime I close at work, I end up grabbing a pretzel/cinnamon or salt & vinegar popcorn/SOFT SERVE ICECREAM… since we have all these new flavours like cotton candy/orange creamsicle/chocolate chip cookie dough/milkshake/pralines & cream/iced capp. OH DEAR LORD, I’M PRACTICALLY DROOLING JUST THINKING ABOUT IT…


Song for the day

Seriously I can’t think of a more beautiful song right now. Laura Marling - Goodbye England (Covered in snow)

Calorie Facts:

Actually learned a little from that article

A big question that gets asked is, “Will _____ burn calories?” More than likely the answer is yes. Breathing burns calories, people!

So here are a list of not typical exercises that are fun and will still burn calories:

  • Wii Fit
  • Just Dance (the video game)
  • Hula Hooping
  • Jump Rope
  • Walking at the mall
  • Playing a friendly game of soccer or basketball with friends
  • Swimming (excellent exercise and fun during the summer!)
  • Playing with your dog
  • Walking up and down the stairs
  • Ice Skating
  • Hop Scotch
  • Lasertag
  • Paintball
  • Ping Pong
  • Trampoline
  • Bowling

Anything that gets your off your butt and gets you moving will burn calories! The more time you spend moving and the less time you spend sitting will really help with your weight loss journey!

vacation was good but im happy to be back! the time crunch got me the week before vacation plus finals.. ugh! even tho i didnt post anything before vacation i stayed current on my diet untill my second day in vegas, it was all over after that. i still got tons of exercise but today is my day back on my diet! and im weaning myself with a mt dew with my breakfast. i lost all my goal weight, my BMI is healthy and IDGAF, im drinking this soda. 

infact, im so proud of myself, im going to have a soda with breakfast tomorrow too..

Day 7: Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?

My mom knows, because I’ve talked to her about it and told her I’d really like to lose weight for my sisters wedding. She tries to give me healthy tips and stuff and she’s supportive. But she’s one of those people who are skinny no matter what—she has really good portion control, doesn’t binge. My dad on the other hand probably has no idea, I don’t really talk to him about that stuff. But he’d be the one to notice if I lost a few pounds. 

Very interesting article!

…I take back everything bad I ever said about him…

O_o …

It says a tablespoon of mayonnaise, but you don’t have to...

I honestly think that a healthy weight loss does not have to consist of boring plain veggies, fruits, and lean meats… or just the typical “eat salad everyday”. Dress up your food a bit, add some spice, seasoning, and flavor! Of course, choose wisely

It’s the boring food that get most people of track and leading back to the less healthy choices. Make your weight loss experience worth while, because it takes a lot of time. So take the time to make amazing foods that’ll keep you going until you reach your weight goal and even the rest of your life!

Be creative lovelies! 

So I got crazy excited last night, because I was 117.0, which is 0.2 lower than I was that morning! Normally I go down by about a lb overnight. So why this morning was I exactly the same? Anyone got any idea’s?

I hit 128 pounds today!

That means I’ve lost 9 pounds so far. (:

Sorry I’m really bad at updating this blog. :(



so cute!!

Breakfast:

  • Maple streusel oatmeal w/ soymilk: 173
  • Two scrambled eggs: 140 calories

Lunch:

  • Tony and Alba’s cheese pizza (2 slices): 474 calories

Dinner:

  • Chicken salad (lettuce, grilled chicken, parmesan cheese, 2 egg whites, and croutons): 269 calories

Snack:

  • Green tea w/ Splenda
  • Chocolate Banana Peanut Butter protein shake (this was delicious, but I made way too much and felt sick later): 443
  • Annie’s Cheddar Bunnies: 140 calories

Total calories: 1626

Exercise:

  • Walking with weights (1.35 miles): 237 calories

Total net calories: 1389

things i want to be able to wear:

1. new shorts! i bought them today (they were uber marked down on clearance, and i couldn’t help myselfff)  i went to Target to find some new bras, and after i tried on a bunch and gave up i found these shorts and didn’t want to waste any more time trying them on. they only had size Large.

Okay, now i’m going to venture on another direction:

the idea of my ass fitting into a size Large in Juniors is unheard of, okay? all of the women in my family have very very large backsides(we’re 100% whitest of white). i’m always a size 12 and its always super tight on my butt and thighs and then lose in my waist. when i started putting on weight, it all went directly to my stomach which started fitting into my size 12s and ventured into size 14 occasionally. 

so now i’m losing weight, losing my tummy, not losing my butt. which is okay. its certainly who i am and i’m not willing to give my junk up entirely. however i’m totally looking forward to having a nice, smaller, toned backside to show off in nice floral shorts that i just bought.

back to the shorts. they only had large. i figured i might as well buy them as a goal. well, i got them and tried them on and they fit. “fit” means they go on my body, which is something noooo size large anythings do. so that was a huge acomplishment for me. however, they are skin tight.

i can’t even explain how impossible it is for a large to fit on my butt. like, i can’t. and it does. but i want to feel great in them! i’d never wear them in public like this, so i want to feel comfortable and great in them

so that’s goal number one.

2. my size 12 jeans. i bought them really tight and i could never wear them because it almost made me sick how tight they were (i’m broke okay) its so stupid that i can’t wear them now because they’re 12s and i can button them but they’re so tight on my stomach still, and i want to be able to wear them! it will be a really great moment when i can comfortably wear those.

3. i had another one what the hell was it.

3.

3.

3.

3.

I sometimes wonder if I’d be less afraid of rejection if I weren’t so large. 

The personality I used to have is completely gone. The confident in your face chick is gone! The show everyone my tits is gone. The I like everyone is gone.

Well… I know that being smaller isn’t going to miraculously change my life but perhaps it will change my approach. 

I fell down the past few days and am mustering up the nerve and confidence to go again. I’m not really mad at myself because I haven’t given up and it’s been 4 months since I started this journey. I don’t have a lot of weight loss to show for it, but I can honestly say that my mind is still where it needs to be. It’s not as focused as it could be but I say some effort is worthy of recognition. It’s better than ignoring it and doing nothing. Right?

Ugh. I hope so. I hope I don’t drop dead before I manage to get all of this under control. 

(deep breath)

So, tomorrow, I try again. Tomorrow I’m going to be on top of shit, be prepared. … no bullshit. I need to feel lighter and not so heavy. I think a lighter step would mean a lighter heart. 

Maybe?

Before you do ANYTHING else you need to run out and buy this:

Sure, the nutritional facts on the package may say that it has 190 calories per serving but this is a lie! The truth is that all dinosaur-themed products actually have negative calories!!! Yep, that’s right. Forget celery and apples, eat this stuff and you’ll reach your goal weight and be skinnaayyy in no time!

So Tomorrow I promise I’ll do measurements/weight and whatnot because I’ll be home! Back from California!

B-egg and toast

L-chicken fries and nachos

D-delishious chicken noodle thing

S-none

E-walking WAY up hill all over the San Diego Zoo



It says a tablespoon of mayonnaise, but you don’t have to add it :p At least it’s only a tablespoon!! Click it for the recipe and tell me what you think (:

Photo

717 calories burned walking 2.05 miles in 40:00 minutes.

Then I did the stationary bike for 10:03 burning 51 calories and ‘going’ 1.79 miles



My net calories are 28? Oh, honey. That’s crazy. I swam like a mad woman for almost 3 hours today, along with going to the gym. I need to do a bit less than I did today.

Apparently, I ate like a mad woman, too.

That’s 15.6 miles for you non-metric folk.

I’ve done 10.7km already and am doing around 8km on Sunday morning so on Wednesday and Thursday all I have to do is run 6.3km total, which is easy considering I can do 5km at a time now.

I’m also looking at doing a 10km fun run in August. That will be amazing!

So I’m back at home. +2lbs but that’s not too bad for a 10 day Vacation I guess.

Back to the grind tomorrow though.

B-omelet

L-airline snacks

D-chinese teryikai

S-airline snacks

E-minus a million I sat on a plane all day

“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

Nutrition

Breakfast
2 Over-Easy Eggs
3 Slice Oscar Meyer Turkey Bacon
1 Slice Whole Wheat Toast with 1/2 tbsp. Margarine
1/2 Grapefruit
1 Cup Skim Milk
Calories: 480

Post-Workout Snack
Fresh&Easy, Vanilla Chai Protein Drink, 8 fl. oz.
Calories: 170

Lunch
Athenos Greek Strained Nonfat Yogurt, Strawberry
Bear Naked Fit Triple Berry Crunch, 1/4 Cup
1 Medium Banana
Calories: 325

Dinner
4 oz. Tri Tip
1 Medium Potato, Baked
1/2 tbsp. Margarine and 2 tbsp. Sour Cream
Spring Mix Salad, 1 Cup
1 tbsp. Lite Raspberry Walnut Vinaigrette
Calories: 412

Nighttime Snack
1 Cup Trader Joe’s Sour Cream & Onion Corn Puffs
Calories: 56

Water Consumption
>12 Cups

TOTAL: 1443

Fitness

Weight Training (2 SETS)
Calories Burned: 136

Sleep

9 Hours

Diary

I’m happy to feel like I’m back on track. (:



so i never have to suck my stomach in again

  • 10mins jumping on trampoline = 42 calories burned
  • 5mins jumping jacks = 48 calories burned
  • 20mins jogging = 145 calories burned

= 235 calories burned