I’ve spent my day being throughly unproductive. I’ve been pissed off and tired for two straight days, and I’m starting to think the parasites that have taken over my body are at last sucking the life from me. This isn’t particularly unusual given I’ve been in a horrible state of physical health. I picked up some kind of bug last week to pile on top of everything else, and I haven’t scheduled a dentist appointment because I know I’m going to have to get fillings. I don’t particularly mind fillings, but I feel the staff at the dental office is so condescending that I get irritated just thinking about them. My apologies if I’m too stupid/backwater to take care of my teeth (in fact my teeth are what seem to suffer the most of my hygiene when I’m depressed).
I may not be as depressed as usual, but my health has certainly suffered over the years and continues to affect me. Minor cuts and bug bites on my legs are not healing, I catch upper respiratory infections at the drop of the hat, and I’m at the point I don’t even WANT to know about the state of my teeth.
I hate my health. I know I could do more to take care of myself, but I’m constantly disgusted by my body because no matter what I do I never gain weight, I have scars/stretch marks all over my body (yes, and I’m skinny as hell), my legs have veins showing, my teeth are bad, and my hair is dry and won’t grow. I am extremely frustrated, but I’m already at some kind of doctor’s every other week and I do NOT want to get involved with nutritionists and specialists that are going to harass me further about my biggest insecurity…
Sorry for this, but I am really fed up with bad health…